After going thru all the court records that I have currently in my possession, I decided to move from outline to timeline. Made so much sense after I started jotting down my notes, and I'm so glad I did. I came up with 3, single-spaced pages w/ helpful words that will fill the lines in my upcoming chapters! How exciting!
But, not nearly as exciting as when I got this really big box in the mail -- yesterday -- from Robin, my big twin sister! As always, I had to clean the house first while she waited for me to call her and tell her about my experience. She waited very patiently, I might add, as it took me several hours to clean the house. (See, that's my way of preparing to sit down in solitude so I can gleefully reveal what's inside, the mystery awaiting my full attention.)
As I opened it, I said out loud, "Oh boy! This is just like Christmas!" Funny how twins are. I opened up the 4 flaps that covered the top like a lid and the first thing I saw was an adorable note that made me laugh, and I got teary-eyed. It said, "Hi honey! Merry Christmas! Have a great day! Eat merrily :) Sing, pray, love, joy... xoxo Call me, we'll do lunch hee hee R1 (the 1 is in superscript position; albeit, I think she always placed the number in the subscript spot to indicate she is the 1st of 2...Brain fog. Can't remember)."
In that package, I found so many wonderful, fun things. She is innovative and sweet and giving (though she has nothing to give) and for all these reasons, I can't help but feel touched -- in a way that is indescribable.
In brief, amongst the tokens of love, were tons of letters, notes, old newspapers and clippings, memories sent to me so I can successfully complete my memoir. After all, I'm writing the book about us and much of it is in her honor.
As I continue to scribble onto the pages my thoughts from my past, from 25 years ago, I realize there is no way for me to recreate the events exactly as they occurred, however, it's blessings like this that I know are going to make it as real and final as it possibly could ever be.
(From a college course called The Loving Relationship, I discovered a copy of a paper I wrote and dedicated to my soul mate, my twin, hidden at the bottom of a stack of cards and mementos):
To you, Robin, I say:
It is not merely myself that I promise to you without condition and without limit but it is a whole environment in which the two of us will become happier and happier that I offer to you....(Loving Relationships, by Robert Shelton, p. 47)."
Robin lives more than 1000 miles away from me. I miss you, Robin.